briansbrat

I just want to start out by saying that I love to read everyone’s blog’s it helps me to know that i’m not alone and sometimes I get a good chuckle and read on with a smile on my face….LOVE IT!!!    I have been consistent w/reading other’s blogs since I joined this site but inconsistant w/wrighting my own….I don’t alway’s leave comment’s on other’s blogs because  I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words which is also the reason why I don’t blog consistantly I just can’t seem to make my thoughts flow on paper or computer.   I have alway’s wished that I had the talent that Jo and Dawn have for wrighting and explaning or communicating  thier  thoughts and how they draw people into their blog’s just by the first sentence.  Since I don’t have that ability i’ll just do the best I know how. 

My weight loss is starting to happen again finally so I’m happy about that…For the last year I have struggled w/loosing and gaining the same 8lbs just 8lbs but this has run my life for exactly a year and i’m fed up and have decided to take control….I guess now I know how those people that are trying to loose thier last 10lbs to get to goal feel as I’ve hear that is the hardest part of weight loss. 

I have decided to take the bull by the horns and lead him and not the other way around….I want to see action happening I want to be in control and not the other way around….So to do this I have started walking again and so far have managed to walk three times this week one of which was a 5k marathon that I walked ( I love those!)  I have decided to really try and recognize my hunger signals and emotional feeling when I want to grab something to eat…And to stay as busy as possible so as not to get bored.  

Today is my birthday and I have already taken control by researching my dinner menu and seeing how I can cut pts…..My husband is making me stuffed game hen’s so I asked him to skin it for me before cooking it and by doing that i can have the whole thing for only 6pts and I will take the stuffing out and measure out 1cup full for myself that will be 4pts and to have lot’s of steamed veggies….What I’m most proud of today is this…I orgionally decided that I would have my husband only buy me a single size portion of cake at our local grocery store(which is more like 4 servings but at least not a whole cake) then I decided you know what I’m not going to do that I’m going to treat myself to  a weight watchers desert cake for only 4pts instead….I rock today!!!  lol    Anyhow this is where i’m starting and what a good feeling I have for my decisions.

Gotta go,

xoxoxo

Becky

Hello fellow buddies,

I haven’t blogged in a long, long, long time so I felt it was time. 

I decided not to weigh in today at Weight Watcher’s because I just couldn’t take seeing the scale once again show either no loss or very little loss…I try to tell my self that the scale shouldn’t alter my attitude one way or the other but the simple truth is that it does.  I can’t say that i’m loosing inches instead of pounds because that’s not it either….I know where my problem’s start and end I know why I haven’t had any significant weight loss in the last half year…..I’m my own worst enemy….Home and weekends are where I fail every time I do so well at work only to get home and ruin it w/dinner or a night time snack….Weekends are when we eat out the most and I go in w/a good plan but fail to execute it once i order it’s like some crazy person takes over and order’s something totally fattening and unhealthy…..lol

So i’m still trucking along as I may give up for a day or for a couple of hours but I know to give up permantely will set me back to a place where I never want to go again.  I may not like it but I have finally accepted that this will be a life time issue for me and I can never ever give up for good.

I have decided to shake things up a bit…I have decided to do the Wendie Plan and I have started today….The super low day’s like today are going to be tough for me but boy I can’t wait for my super high day which is Saturday where I get 39pts to eat…..I also plan to start walking consistently again and to drink lot’s of water.

xoxoxoxoxo

Becky

Hello buddies,

It has been a long time since I have even felt like blogging but it struck me this morning so here I am…

Nothing much going on here I have been in the rut of loosing and regaining the same 8lbs since May….My frame of mind for my weight loss has been slightly twisted to where I was feeling sorry for myself and treating that self pity w/food….My struggle still is and always will be weekends for me but I have started journaling again and am trying to condition my mind to have more positive thoughts and so far it is working!

I stop the sight every day read blogs but dont’ alway’s respond but it helps me to know that there are people w/the same struggles as me.

Hopefully I’ll start blogging on a regualr bases again but untill then take care all my fellow buddies.

xoxoxox

Becky

Hello buddies,

Hope everyone had a fun and safe 4th of July!

I am my own worst enemy always have been…I have hit my plataue(sp?)  have actually hit it a few mnths ago.  This last week I have been in self sabatoge mode by punishing my self for this plataue by eating , eating, eating any and everything I want…As i’m eating I am thinking two things one being that I know I need to put down what ever I am eating as it won’t help my plataue any and it will only make me feel worse but then at the same time i’m telling my self that why not eat it as I can’t loose any more weight anyways….It’s like having the angel sitting on one shoulder and the devil on the other.   I am soooo frustrated.

However I have decided to quit punishing my self as of now…I am getting back on track and I have been doing some back research in my mind to figure out what I need to do differently and think I have figured it out….So wish me luck as I go forward on my journey.

xoxoxo

Becky

    Hello buddies,
It’s been a long time since I posted a blog…Summer time is a super busy season for me at work..I work in the heating and air conditioning buisness so as you can imagine when it is super hot outside people are not happy without thier air…lol    

I stop by everyday to read blogs just don’t have time to comment them or to wright my own…Sorry for that but it is what it is. 

I think I have hit my plataue(sp?) as I am still at 192 and have been up and down a few lbs from it for the last couple of mths…So frustrating as most of you know…The worst part is I think I know what I need to do to get out of it but that doesn’t stop me from reaching for that cookie or for those chips…It doesn’t help me to get up a half hour earlier to exercise….I get soooooo frustrated because I am my own worst enemy as far as my weight loss goes…And you would think that this feeling of constant frustration would help me to get my act together…But it doesn’t or at least it hasn’t yet.

I have a Weight Watchers buddy at work she has turned out to be a very good friend and is great support for me..Support I didn’t know I needed but found it in her…It’s great!   

My grandaughter is growing like a weed and she is sooooo fun to be around….Not much new going on with me…I pretty much been just working, eating and sleeping as I seem to have no energy for anything else. 

I hope all is well with everyone here I enjoy reading your blogs they help to keep me grounded.

xoxoxox
Becky

Hello fellow buddies,

Well today is Saturday and I can’t sleep so I thought I would come here and blog finally since everyone is sleeping and I don’t have to fight for the computer…lol

I have been doing well I weighed in at W/W Wendesday and I am down another pound….I have been walking at lunch time still and going to Curves and I even took my weights to work and have started using them there on my breaks.   I really want to get rid of my arm flab so I figured I would use my weights more at work then here at home…We’ll see!

I love spring and summer time for all the yummy fruits and veggies that are available to us at this season but I sure don’t like the heat anymore…Ughhhh!

I finally went to the doctors for my mood swings and they have diagnosed me as being bipolar w/slight depression and have prescribed medication to me for it….The bipolar thing I could believe but I don’t feel that I am depressed…..My sister was diagnosed with severe bipolar years ago and they said it can run in the family…I am going to do some research on it just so I have knowledge.

Well thank you for listening and I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and for the mom’s out there….HAPPY MOM’S DAY!

xoxoxoxo
Becky

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Happy Hump Day!!!    Today was weigh in day and I am happy to report that I finally got to my 10% weight goal

Happy Hump Day Buddies,

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Hope all is well with everyone! 

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 As my title states #’s on the scale are everything to me,  that # means I have had a good week or a bad week that # means I have stayed on track or I haven’t I wish it weren’t so but I would be lying if I said it wasn’t…I am not in a place yet where those #’s on the scale or just a # like a lot of you here are….If when I weigh in on Wenesday morning and those #’s are up it ruins my whole day and if they are down then I am floating on cloud 9. 

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I hope to some day have the mentality where I don’t focus so much on what the scale says but for now it is everything to me.

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I do have good news today…On last weeks weight in I found out after taking two weeks off from W/W and the gym that I had gained 5.6 lbs back I was devasted but not shocked well a little shocked as I didn’t think I had re~gained that much back.  Well on todays weigh in I lost 6.6 lbs so not only in one week did I loose everything I had regained but also lost one extra pound…I was soooooo excited and as I said early I am floating on cloud 9.  It usually takes me weeks to un~do that kind of damage. 

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So this is what I mean that #’s on the scale are everything to me…Sad but true!  

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Thanks for listening talk to you all soon,

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xoxoxo

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Becky

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Hello buddies long time no blog,

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I am feeling much better then when I posted my last blog thank goodness I was way down in the dumps and that is not a good place to be.

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So I am back in full swing, I started back to  Curves yesterday after not being for 2-wks I am going back to Weight Watchers tomorrow morning after being gone for 2-wks so I am so curious to see how much I gained.   Within this two week time frame I made pretty good choices most the time so I’m hoping that works out in my favor.  I am really tired of being at the 20lb mark and even more tired of gaining and re~loosing the same friggin 5lbs. 

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My new favorite qoute:  Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People who don’t have dreams don’t have much. 

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xoxoxo

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Becky

Hello Buddies,

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Things are not going so well for me mentally lately